Aww, I completely understand. I'm not giving up either. She was a blessing to have in our life and I thank Him for bringing her to me for the short time she was with us.
I had a 9 month old Chihuahua. She was such a free spirit, always in one of the best moods. She ABSOLUTELY loved everyone. There was not a time that went by, that she wasn't in my lap or someone elses or giving kisses. She was a wild child. Running around, playing with Camo (Our other Chi) and just having fun. Kali ended up getting pregnant in November. She had a great, smooth pregnancy. On January 6, 2007 she started having contractions around 10:30 that night. She had Kami (our little girl) at 1:30. Malley (Our little boy) arrived at 5:30. She was a wonderful mommy. I watched them for a couple hours before I went back to sleep. I woke up around 10:30 that morning and took her outside to use the restroom. She was in a great mood, running around, looking for everyone, giving kisses, eating and drinking. And most of all taking wonderful care of her two sweet babies.
-Monday, January 8, 2007-
She was doing great, taking care of the babies. Growling at any dogs that came near. I fed her around noon, some canned 'Ol Roy dog food. About 2 pm she started bleeding out. She wouldn't eat but was still drinking. She was taken to the vet where they ran all sorts of tests on her. Nothing. We had taken the babies off of her when we realized something was wrong, feeding them formula from a bottle.
-Tuesday, January 9, 2007-
She was no longer cleaning the babies. No longer wanting to be near them. She would deficate and urinate and just lay in it. Throwing up constantly, and it wasn't food. She had quit eating, and wasn't responding to us. I'd pick her up only to hear her cry out. She couldn't stand up and wouldn't sit, either. She became cold and distant.
Tuesday night my husband took her to the vet. Her temperature had dropped to 93 degrees. It's supposed to be 101. They ran more tests on her, and had found she had kidney and liver failure. They wanted to keep her overnight and monitor her. To pump her with fluids, as she was dehydrated, and put it all back into her. Put her on an IV. As they were closing that night we sent her to the animal hospital so she wouldn't be alone. At 10:30 we recieved a call and was told her temp was up, she wasn't out of the woods, but was looking better.
At 11:00 I got that dreaded phone call. Her heart had given out. Her organs had began shutting down way before that and her little heart couldn't take it any longer.
At 12 hubby picked her up and went an hour out of his way to bury her underneath a beautiful tree, at my parents house..
The next day the vet went to pick her up only to discover she had passed. He called to see where she was. Then asked to do an autopsy. I couldn't bare the thought of digging her up. Just let her rest. She's had a long couple of days, with unbearable pain.
11 weeks later, Kami and Malley are doing wonderful. But it has been the longest 11 weeks of my life. Dealing with the pain of losing her and the thought in the back of my head that these two beautiful pups we've brought up, might be taken just as fast as she was.
This is my Kali.
Camo and Kali on Christmas
And at 11 weeks old - Baby Kami
Baby Malley
This is where my baby lies. No longer sleeping in bed with me, daddy, or Camo. All by herself. This is what kills me more than anything.
video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7928204375522525848&q=in+memory+of+kaliI wrote this poem..
My beautiful angel mommy,
We miss you so much.
I miss my little shadow, your kisses, your touch.
I tried so hard to keep you here with me,
with daddy, camo, the babies. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be
It's hard to come home and not see you..
If I would have known our end was near,
I wouldn't have left your side, my dear.
I would have stayed with you all day and all night.
Kissing you, holding you, watching you and helping you fight
The sickness within that I didn't know, that in the end took your life
You were our everything. Our baby girl, a mommy and Camo's little wife
My heart aches, I cry myself to sleep,
Remembering the phone call I got only makes me weep
Nothing breaks my heart more than knowing I wasn't there, for my baby girl
When you stopped breathing and forever left my world.
You were with strangers, I hope you knew we came
To see you, you lifted your head when we spoke your name
We gave you kisses and told you we loved you,
And prayed you'd pull through.
We miss you so much sweetheart,
You will always be remembered and forever in our hearts.
If the pictures don't show up, go to the other thread under general as Pet Loss and it's under Kali. I better get to bed - thundering and lightening pretty bad and Casey (my Lab) is about to tear my door down trying to get in. Haha. Hope you have a good night.